To love means… Loving the unlovable.
To forgive means… Pardonding the unpardonable.
Faith means… Believing the unbelievable.
Hope means… Hoping when everything seems hopeless.

(Gilbert Chesterton 1874 - 1936)

On the top of the high mountains I felt free. In the seawater I felt like a mermaid. In the woods I felt like an adventurer. Yes, nature clears my mind, inspires me and  gives me new energy. The people there are nice, warm and gentle. With a heart full of love I took the plane back to home. Home..it doesn’t feel like home at all. It feels like someone knocked me down. A damn hard society, rainy days and unhappy people. And about love..the facts are realistic. It’s not the right time.  And one day the sun will shine here again. One day love will grow and bloom like the flowers in a peaceful field. And if not..at least I have the greatest memories ever!

A few more hours and I will fly far away to another country. It’s time to enjoy my holidays in the sun. Many things happened in a few weeks time. I cried and I laughed. I lived and loved with my whole heart. Everything I did was worth it. Now I can think back of beautiful and amazing moments. I collect moments, not things. I graduated and I’m a free person now. Anything is possible..I can chose any liferoad I want. I’m single and I’ve met someone special..still everything is possible. I dont know where I’m going but I know I’m on my way. Well hello freedom, I didn’t knew you before. I always desired you. Finally you came knocking on my door and I embrace you with thousand arms. I feel connected with the universe. I love life! ♥

We live in a society based on power and material things. All around me I see people stressing out, working hard and being too busy for eachother. There’s ‘no time’ for a good conversation, a walk in the nature or a deep meditation to find some peace. And it’s not okay, no it’s not alright to walk yourself by caught up in the system. We are human beings and not robots. I miss the deeper connection with people in life. Often we talk in a chat, staring to our computer screens, mobile phones and tv’s. Other times I meet people in the crowd when me and my friends are going out and having fun. Oh I sure have a great time but my soul is searching for something more. When I stare out my window I see an ugly world full of buildings and cars. I want to go back from where I came from. A lovely place with nature, animals, humans living together with love, peace and happiness. What happened to this world? I wish everyone cared more for healing this world again!

Mostly I walk the path of life on my own. Even in love I felt many times alone. If you have an old spiritual soul like mine you have to trust and guide yourself. Now and then you have to let people go to grow further. You have to take the courage to solve the puzzle of your lifelessons. Some pieces will fit and others won’t. Sometimes you take steps forward and other times you have to step back. Still..I would love to have a soulmate, a deep love, a great friend and a lover. Someone who understands me. Someone who’ll hold my hand and always be there for me. Someone who truly loves me for who I am with all my beauty and darkness inside. 

I’m fine, I’m okay..that’s what I thought. Till someone reminds me of my damn childhood. Tears came from the deepest of my soul. The feeling of being misunderstood, unheard and unimportant. I see myself as a little child back then. A sensitive child with fantasy and creative talents. I was a rebel in my teenager years. I never fit in the system and I refused to fit in. Call me weird..call me stubborn but I’m proud of who I am. I’m proud of the person that I’m today. I walked a long dark road and I’m happy to see the light again. No matter what happens..I’m strong and I’ll survive. Now it’s my time to shine. I’m no longer a flower in the muddle. I’m a flower growing towards the sun. I survived cause of my big heart full of love, hope and forgiveness. I’m free like an eagle in the sky now. Free to fly and live my life day by day. I’m ready to spread my wings and fly away! 

‘Life is an ever‐flowing river of balance and harmony. Nature achieves harmony through countless interrelations between all living things: giving, receiving and sharing in balance are at the core of this sacred dance of life. Nowadays, humanity has moved away from this dynamic embrace and we are all suffering from this together with mother earth. The essence of shamanism is to understand this flow in order to live life filled with vitality, beauty, power and communion with all that is.’

-Benoit Paquette-

A lovely brand new day. It feels like a new beginning. New possibilities and new roads to walk. Like the flow in the river..everything is possible in life. I can stand still for a while if I want. I can go right of left. I can follow the wind and run free. I if dont feel to do anything today..there’s always a tomorrow. Dreams, inspirations and ideas enough. I just have to look for signs and follow the path of my heart.

Another sad rainy day. I bought myself some beautiful flowers today. These flowers reminds me of the summer. The summer seems so far away. Oh well, these flowers cheer me up. I see myself walking in the nature between even more lovely flowers. Long summer days with flowers in my hair and the sun in my heart. The sun lights up peoples hearts. I just want to see happy people, sparkling eyes and big smiles around me. I guess I just have to wait. Between the clouds I can see the sun shining again, sparkling like a diamond. Dear sun, welcome back ♥

Oh the rush in the big city..cars, neon lights, big buildings, tons of people and noises everywhere. I get tired and lost in this busy and unpersonal society. I tried to search for a quiet place but I could’nt find it here. The bad weather doesn’t make it any better. I desire for rest, peace and warmth. If I could I would pack my bags immediately and chose for a wild adventure. Another city, another country, other people..far away from here. I have to wait 3 more weeks. Can’t wait to feel free again. Just walking with my backpack in the sun. No plans, no worries, no stress..just me with mother nature. Sunkisses in the day and shooting star in the nights. A summer breeze, an empty mind and many roads to explore. Hell yeah!